Have you watched Winnie the Pooh recently? I say watched because I'm sure I've read the books or have had them read to me, but I don't really remember right now. A while back I was watching the Disney movie with Eleanor and that is freshest in my memory.
The ending really stuck with me and I almost lost it. Do you know what I'm talking about? Christopher Robin heading off to school and as a result will not be able to visit 100 acre wood that much. Going to school is symbolic of leaving behind his imaginary land of joy, playfulness and innocence! It just always makes me so so sad to think of a child choosing to leave the imaginary land. Oh, I have to grow up now, time to leave behind that silly stuff. It hurts me to no end because I love that land!!! I want to scream at him "Don't do it Christopher Robin! Stay with Pooh!"
But we have to go. For some reason we have to go to school and learn to tease each other, pull legs off spiders, do our work and pretend, but this time for a whole different reason. I hate it.
I guess it's obvious my heart is heavy today, sometimes the rain can do that. So can listening to love songs, which I'm also doing.
It's the thing that excites and scares me most.